So, it’s been quite a while since I last posted about our (originally temporary) move to care for my partner’s father who was diagnosed with lung cancer. As it turns out (as many of you who have cared for a loved one with a terminal illness already know), being a full-time caregiver is hard. Extremely hard. And trying to run a business while remembering doses of medicines, planning around unexpected emergency visits to the hospital and doctors’ appointments, cooking meals, and trying not to have emotional breakdowns while watching your loved one suffer is a soul-wrenching business. Never have I been so exhausted, yet pleased to be in a position where I could help and care for such a wonderful man.
Prior to this whole experience, I had a tendency to be somewhat disorganized. Well, guess what I learned how to do while juggling so many important tasks? Organization became essential if I wanted to accomplish any work at all, and out of that organization came a deeper awareness of what work I really enjoy doing, and what tasks are definitely not my favorite. It helped me grow and focus, even though there were a lot of nights with no sleep and occasional mandatory knitting breaks to keep myself sane.
But it also helped me focus on what I really want out of my business and my life. As I mentioned in my previous post, I’m so thankful that I was in a position to suddenly move a few states away and focus on my family, and that’s something that I never plan on giving up. Nor do I want to give up the ability to spend more time with family and friends while they are still able to have conversations and enjoy life. And I want to build a business where I work with clients who are amazing, while helping them meet their business goals, however large or small those goals may be.
Ray passed away in early January, in the home he built, surrounded by the family he loved. It’s been hard to not have him around, but I will always be thankful for the time I was able to spend with him, and the clarity that this experience has provided. It has been awful and beautiful all at the same time.
Go visit your parents.